Would you consider to become a vegeterian or a vegan?Why or Why not?

I sometimes would like to be a vegetarian because i think about how the food i am eating was once a real living animal. I sometimes get disgusted because i think about how they treat does poor animals and how much they suffer until they no longer are alive. It's sad to think that thses animals don't have a say in this situation. Then its very hard to give up meat all of a sudden and then you know its just hard to give up something that you know is bad to eat.Then that illusion i have to become a vegeterian fades away and i end up eating meat again.